Day 4 of being job free. I am coming to find joy in the fact that I was fired. The frustration that I felt over the fact that I was fired, and the manner in which it occurred has begun to pass. I am now grateful to be free of that situation. I have been praying for 3 months to be set free from it, but I had thought that I'd have another job and be quitting, not getting fired. I don't like having that on my record, it's just like getting an "F" in school, the implication is the same, you just didn't make the cut, you didn't do the work, you lacked effort. That's not the case though. It's like I was doing the work for a class I never signed up for or was duped into taking believing that it was something that it wasn't. Can you really fail if you were deceived to begin with? The job turned out to be something completely different than what I had signed up for, with rules that constantly changed as soon as I began to succeed. Frustrating to the extreme. Did I fail or was it sabotage? Either way I learned a lot of what not to do's, and developed a strong aversion to dirty dishes, rotting food, messy houses, and strong ideas on potty training and child care. That's something to take away.
Now I am just glad to be free. Reveling in it actually. The burden is gone, the stress has vanished, I'm remembering how to truly laugh, relax and have fun again. I didn't realize just how much this terrible job was leaching from me, mentally, physically, spiritually. It's good now to be free. To escape. Praise God for setting me free. It truly is an answered prayer, maybe not answered the way I thought it would be, but God never seems to work the way we expect. He has His own way of doing things, while they don't make sense at first, or sometimes ever, in the end the results are perfect.
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