it's not true-dispite everything telling me different.

So I've started to run. I've heard from lots of people what a great sport it is-how good it makes you feel, how little you need to actually do it.
Walking seemed just fine for me. It's not as fast, but still, the throbbing in my feet and legs afterward-not to mention something I'm sure I saw on TV, told me walking was just as good. Really, I am sure it's all just fantastic, and the only difference is speed and how quickly you feel like you really can't go forward anymore, please shoot me.

But I report, running is different. It's different because my body immediately informs me that this pace won't get us from a to b that much faster, do we really have to? When I tell my body to shut up and deal with it, it does, but with a warning that we will all be sure to die soon. My body is fond of exaggeration. Plus running doesn't have that much room for thinking-it feels like all the mental rescorces are taken up with the effort of lying to my body. My mental voice, when I've paid attention, seems to go like this.
One foot in front of other, at least to that tree. Tree accomplished, goal! Now to that rock.
I'm also not so much a runner that I see any need to run in full sun, on pavement. I walk to field, there's a dirt path, and it's shady. Anyone would tell me that I am not really jogging-but since I have yet to convince everything from the neck down that we're doing this at all-I don't really care.
I'm can't say that I look all that in shape, but I've never thought I looked terrible either. I'm doing this because it's always irked me that other's can run a strech, and there isn't an increase (that I've noticed) in their breathing. Those people, of course, look at me and are like, we're not even going that fast, and that's your top speed, and you're outta breath? It's good that I have nothing to do with those people anymore. But it gives me a smug feeling, that with this regularity, I will be healther.
I'm noticeing that all this running has an immediate effect right afterwards. Heart races, and bum bum bum, there is so much extra blood...it's worth an extra little bit to keep that feeling.